There's always that gray area....that blurred line.
I know this: Ya gotta recognize that sin before you can recognize that Savior!
Here's my gray area: being loving & Christlike VS. standing up for myself & not getting walked all over.
It seems as though this goes hand in hand with being a people pleaser. It seems to me as if that phrase can have both good & bad connotations. Good because you'd rather just go with the flow, push yourself to the side, and simply please others before yourself. Bad because you lose sight of what you truly believe, no longer have a voice, and become controlled by people.
As children of the Father, we're called to love others as Christ loves us. Yes, we fail, but we're still supposed to strive. Thus, God gives us the ability to love people through their sin just like they're given the ability to love us through our sin.
But, does attempting to unconditionally love a person, despite their flaws, at some point come to cease? Maybe that ceasing occurs when they are too proud to realize they're in the wrong, are blind to their sin, and surely aren't sorry for it. One person is poured out until run dry. The other is overflowing. They want to be showered in love and grace, not recognizing they have a legitimate need for it.
When I think of standing up for myself and not caring what other people think, I ask myself if this is possible in love. I think it is. It's not meant to sound selfish or disregard other peoples' feelings. It's about knowing just where that line is, where you know you can no longer sacrifice your total well-being for another who is not willing to even attempt to love you back.
But, when "those people" do legitimately care, they'll want to see your side of it, want to respect you for having an opinion. Love is a two way street (three if you include that dude named Jesus). If they see their own sin, see where they're in the wrong, where they've been hurtful, they're going to naturally want to come running back in eagerness to mend those wounds back together.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
exposure.
I never thought I would enjoy, for lack of a better term, my sins being exposed? Maybe not so much enjoy, but feel peaceful about.
I'm seeing more and more the sinner that I am. I've been told my whole life that I am, will confess that publicly on Sunday mornings, and ask to be forgiven. But, again, again, again, I'm experiencing it. The beauty of it? It only displays God's stinkin' glory more and more and more. When you're able to step back, basically say 'I suck', and not see yourself on a totem pole anymore, God is magnified. Less of you, more of him.
I think there are two types of sinners. Those who recognize their sin and seek repentance AND those who simply sin. When we don't seek repentance, there is one thing in the way: pride. Someone tries to tell us we've messed up: no I haven't. Someone tries to point out our insecurities: no I'm not. Someone tries to specify our mistake: no I didn't. (We always know in our heart of hearts that they're right, ps.)
I'm insecure on many levels. I'm working on my insecurity in my sin. Insecurity that is slowly being lifted the more and more I'm exposed. It's sinful of me to be blind to my sin. If I try to put on a facade, push my sin into the shadow, I'm not only fooling myself. I'm fooling every stinkin' person in my midst.
I intensely yearn for truth.
Exposure does many things. It makes me feel like crap. It makes me kick myself in the rear end because I've probably, actually, most definitely, hurt those I love. Truth freakin hurts. Cliche? Of course. It makes me reevaluate, maybe analyze too much? But, most importantly, it shows me where I've screwed over other people, myself, and mainly my God. This, my friends, is what makes me feel sorry for what I've done. Its impossible to feel sorry if it's hidden in the darkness. Then, I have no other desire than to rest, lay, be held tightly in the palm of my Father's hand.
Exposure. It's necessary.
He who listens to a life-giving rebuke will be at home among the wise. He who ignores discipline despises himself, but whoever heeds corrections gain understanding. The fear of the Lord teaches a man wisdom, and humility comes before honor. (Proverbs 15:31-33).
Bottom line: tell me I'm a sinner, tell me when I sin, tell me how I sin, and maybe even point me to the cross when I'm stubborn enough to not believe you.
I'm seeing more and more the sinner that I am. I've been told my whole life that I am, will confess that publicly on Sunday mornings, and ask to be forgiven. But, again, again, again, I'm experiencing it. The beauty of it? It only displays God's stinkin' glory more and more and more. When you're able to step back, basically say 'I suck', and not see yourself on a totem pole anymore, God is magnified. Less of you, more of him.
I think there are two types of sinners. Those who recognize their sin and seek repentance AND those who simply sin. When we don't seek repentance, there is one thing in the way: pride. Someone tries to tell us we've messed up: no I haven't. Someone tries to point out our insecurities: no I'm not. Someone tries to specify our mistake: no I didn't. (We always know in our heart of hearts that they're right, ps.)
I'm insecure on many levels. I'm working on my insecurity in my sin. Insecurity that is slowly being lifted the more and more I'm exposed. It's sinful of me to be blind to my sin. If I try to put on a facade, push my sin into the shadow, I'm not only fooling myself. I'm fooling every stinkin' person in my midst.
I intensely yearn for truth.
Exposure does many things. It makes me feel like crap. It makes me kick myself in the rear end because I've probably, actually, most definitely, hurt those I love. Truth freakin hurts. Cliche? Of course. It makes me reevaluate, maybe analyze too much? But, most importantly, it shows me where I've screwed over other people, myself, and mainly my God. This, my friends, is what makes me feel sorry for what I've done. Its impossible to feel sorry if it's hidden in the darkness. Then, I have no other desire than to rest, lay, be held tightly in the palm of my Father's hand.
Exposure. It's necessary.
He who listens to a life-giving rebuke will be at home among the wise. He who ignores discipline despises himself, but whoever heeds corrections gain understanding. The fear of the Lord teaches a man wisdom, and humility comes before honor. (Proverbs 15:31-33).
Bottom line: tell me I'm a sinner, tell me when I sin, tell me how I sin, and maybe even point me to the cross when I'm stubborn enough to not believe you.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
twisted.
I'm coming to strong terms with the fact that the Bible is way too stinkin' twisted. By us. humans.
God's Word is straight up. It's truth. It's legitimate. It's accurate.
Why do we magnify certain passages and blur others? We find a passage that isn't convicting, makes us feel comfortable because we might just be abiding by it, and to us, it shines, while at the same time, we shove those passages that stir up some dissonance to the side. Are we so insecure that what Jesus really has to say to us makes us put our own spin on it, our own 'interpretation' so we can justify our sins? I think so.
A few examples...
Jesus straight up tells us:
"If you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins."(Matthew 6:15)
"Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before my Father in heaven. But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown him before my Father in heaven." (Matthew 10:32-33)
"Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me." (Matthew 10:37)
(In the same regard, I'm not saying to take everything literal such as Mark 9:45 when Jesus says, "If your foot causes you to sin, cut if off. It is better for you to enter life crippled than to have two feet and be thrown into hell." Jesus himself used figures of speech to make intriguing points. However, if it were to come down to it, I would rather be footless than hellful.)
There is obviously no doubt about it....that we have a gracious (giving us something we don't deserve), merciful (withholding something we do deserve) God. He is powerful enough to cover all of our sins. And he does. He did. So, for our human selves, it makes sense when such passages make us feel uncomfortable.
I do not bring to light these commands in order to make you feel convicted. I've simply learned that seeing and hearing such truths make us ACT. It makes us see our sin, seek repentance, and go runnin' back to our God of this universe. He's simply using his Word to show us just how legit he is. He's simply trying to save us some heartache because he knows that when we put people, things, objects, ideas before him, it's just eventually going to screw us up even more than our current state. He's being a Father, a father who disciplines, a father who shows, who is, love.
....for God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him (John 3:17).
God's Word is straight up. It's truth. It's legitimate. It's accurate.
Why do we magnify certain passages and blur others? We find a passage that isn't convicting, makes us feel comfortable because we might just be abiding by it, and to us, it shines, while at the same time, we shove those passages that stir up some dissonance to the side. Are we so insecure that what Jesus really has to say to us makes us put our own spin on it, our own 'interpretation' so we can justify our sins? I think so.
A few examples...
Jesus straight up tells us:
"If you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins."(Matthew 6:15)
"Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before my Father in heaven. But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown him before my Father in heaven." (Matthew 10:32-33)
"Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me." (Matthew 10:37)
(In the same regard, I'm not saying to take everything literal such as Mark 9:45 when Jesus says, "If your foot causes you to sin, cut if off. It is better for you to enter life crippled than to have two feet and be thrown into hell." Jesus himself used figures of speech to make intriguing points. However, if it were to come down to it, I would rather be footless than hellful.)
There is obviously no doubt about it....that we have a gracious (giving us something we don't deserve), merciful (withholding something we do deserve) God. He is powerful enough to cover all of our sins. And he does. He did. So, for our human selves, it makes sense when such passages make us feel uncomfortable.
I do not bring to light these commands in order to make you feel convicted. I've simply learned that seeing and hearing such truths make us ACT. It makes us see our sin, seek repentance, and go runnin' back to our God of this universe. He's simply using his Word to show us just how legit he is. He's simply trying to save us some heartache because he knows that when we put people, things, objects, ideas before him, it's just eventually going to screw us up even more than our current state. He's being a Father, a father who disciplines, a father who shows, who is, love.
....for God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him (John 3:17).
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