Yep, that makes one feel a lack of direction.
This weekend I was surrounded by thousands of teen girls, many of whom know what their dreams look like. Ya know, wanting to be the first female president. Wanting to be an actress. Wanting to be a teacher. I don't know where I'm going or what I will be doing in the very near future, but I do know that I'm feeling nudged by God and that's a pretty legit feeling. I can think of random things that would be pretty sweet in regards to just building relationships with strangers and tellin people about Jesus but then I get concerned with money and how that would happen and where I would start etc., etc. But, ya know what, that's me limiting my God. That's me saying, "Lord, despite me feeling a nudge from you and the fact that you are doing some crazy things in my life, I doubt you. I don't think you can do it." But, I am SO wrong.
I've been praying for people and resources and clarity and that's exactly what God's been giving me. He is giving me all these things that enable me to see how he is able to work and how he is working. My new friend, Miss Grace Knuth, recently opened her precious self to me! I would have to say that she was the beginning of this little adventure in which God strapped some goggles onto my eyes. Slowly seeing the world as he sees it. Grace opened me into her home. It's what I would call a community house in which God has basically brought together a bunch of random people from a bunch of random backgrounds into one single house. I met a father who has sacrificed so much in order to adopt just one more baby. Material things don't matter to him or his wife. Providing a home for a little baby in so much need is what matters. It's the way people, just like myself, are able to see Jesus through him, through Grace. She showed me what it looks like to be living a life in which one's sole purpose is to build community through and in Jesus Christ. Loving on people because He first loved us. Welcoming all kinds of people in because Christ first welcomed sinners. Sacrificing temporary, earthly gains because God first sacrificed his Son.
Part of this nudge and part of these goggles took another step. I decided, well, God decided, that I should make a small difference in the life of a little 11-year-old girl named Vana halfway across the world. I am now sponsoring her through World Vision. Even though money is tight, its a heck of a lot tighter for Vana and her family. I go to Starbucks on a weekly occasion. I buy clothes that I don't need when I already have a walk-in closet that doesn't quite fit what I already have. I throw a solid three course meal on my plate on a regular occasion at the local restaurant for a pretty penny. So, this is me trying to not be so selfish. She's a real person with real needs. I'm so stinkin excited to hear from her! She can write me letters, and I can indeed write her back. It's not much, but it's something. She is precious, and my heart longs to meet that little girl already!
None of this is on my own. God is molding me and forming me into what he so desires, and I'm just along for the ride! "Therefore, as it is written: 'Let him who boasts boast in the Lord'" (1 Corinthians 1:31).
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