music? (and coffee).

Aside from my heavenly Father, one super family, and some LEGIT friends, I have a love for music and coffee...maybe an addiction?


What is it about being able to connect with a certain song, under certain circumstances, for a certain period of time? Singing to yourself those certain lyrics over and over and over again because you feel them, you connect with them in a way that feels as if they are seeping through your skin, and they were basically written for you. 


Even though my boy Jake Gerald-Louis Griedl is probably thinkin that my music selection must broaden its horizons (and it has thanks to him) before I can express all of my love toward it, we have recently experienced, together, a new found love of thee Lecrae. Christian. Rap artist. Yes, those three words go very well together. Aside from Jake dancin his lil booty off to Killa & 40 Deep (which have pretty legit beats), there is this one song. 


Background.


"It's evident you run the show, so let me back down
You take the leadin role, and I'll play the background
I know I miss my cues, know I forget my lines
I'm stickin to your script, and I'm readin all your signs
I don't need my name in lights, I don't need a starring role
Why gain the whole wide world, if I'm just gonna lose my soul?
And my ways ain't purified, I don't live according to Your Word
I can't endure this life without Your wisdom being heard
So word to every dancer for a pop star
'Cuz we all play the background, but mine's a rockstar
Yeah, so if you need me I'll be staged right
Prayin the whole world would start embracin stage fright
So let me fall back, stop giving my suggestions
'Cuz when I follow my obsessions, I end up confessin
That I'm not that impressive, matter of fact I'm who I are
A trail of stardust leadin to the superstar"




I think I'm at a point in my life where I am finally starting to understand what it means to take the background. I don't need to be center stage. I didn't write my own script. I don't know where I'm going. I can't see my last scene.  


My Father does. For cryin out loud, he knew, before I was even conceived, where he was takin me on this craaazy journey of life!! How sweet that God is, and able to be, center stage on my behalf. I'm tired of tryin to pull it off by myself. I can't. 


"In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps" Proverbs 16:9

OR

"We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it" Proverbs 16:9 (the message)

Thanks God! Thanks for pushin me out of the leading role and you, yourself takin over!!